Broken toe, broken brain?
Well it's a good thing that last night when I arrived in Kathmandu I possessed neither the energy nor the mental ability to write a blog entry because you would have gotten the most sad, delerious, and depressing thing I've ever written, because as my Grampie used to say, "I'm hanging on by a thin thread."
But alas, today is a new day, and after a much needed meal, hot shower, and sleep, things are (slightly) better than they have been since I arrived in this part of the world.
Part of me would like to say that things can only get better from here but I said that before leaving Varanasi and they definitely took a turn for the worse! Let's just take it one step at a time then...
I left Varanasi and took a local bus to the Indian-Nepalese border which is about 250km away. Would anyone like to hazard a guess at how many hours that took? 13. Yes, 13. Do the math. That's just under twenty km/h on a hunk of shit bus with Indian men spitting, snotting, and pissing around me. By the time I got to the Nepal border it was dark and I was mental and had no clue what I was doing. I was led by a random man to a table down the road with a sign written above it that said Indian immigration. Just a table in a shop on the side of the road with one man watching cricket on the tv who took my passport for a few minutes and then handed it back with the appropriate stamp. I then walked across the border and went into an only slightly more sophisticated room with a little Nepalese man who did the same thing. He had to leave to go and get someone to sign my visa though. The random man then led me to what I guess they consider a hotel. I can only describe it as a place where people go to die. In all my travels I have never stayed somewhere so awful and so sketchy, including the night I spent on the Mekong river in rural Laos in a room with plywood walls and drug deals going on in the room beside me. If you've seen the movie "The Beach" and you remember the room that the crazy guy Daffy kills himself in at the begining of the film, this was pretty much the room I stayed in. No electricity. No water. And I listened to men wreching outside my window all night. It was one of the longest nights of my life. Oh, I almost forgot, the best thing about this "hotel" was that it was called hotel paradise.
The next morning in my state of misery I broke my big toe by walking forcefully into a concrete step and then spent from 6:30am until 4:30pm on another local bus through rural Nepal. This time, the woman sitting in front of me vomitted out of the window and onto me! Awesome! The only good thing that happened on the bus was that a cute little girl asked me for my autograph. From India to Nepal I've gone from a circus freak to a celebrity. The bus through Nepal was crazy. Winding through the mountains on these terribly windy roads passing buses on the shoulder reminded me of the bus rides I took in Costa Rica when I was 17. It was sickenly scary then but this time around I didn't care. Part of me wanted the bus to flip over and crash down into a gorge just so I wouldn't have to be on the bus anymore.
So, I'm now in Kathmandu and trying to figure out what to do with myself. I've decided that this trip to India is much like the decision I made to go bungy jumping: something I felt I had to do in order to prove to myself that I could. Just like jumping off the bridge, I didn't really want to, but my pride made me. Stressfully, scary, and something that I'll never do again once it's over.
I've realised more and more while here that despite being a fiercly independent person, I do not do well without social interaction. Sitting on buses all day long and going days without having a real conversation in english with someone gives you way too much time to think. And for someone who already thinks too much and is a little bit on the metal side, a happy woman this does not make. I honestly think that over the past week or so I've thought about every aspect of my past, present, and future: every friend I've ever had, every guy I've ever liked, every job, every regret, everything. I know part of traveling on your own for an extended period of time is to award you the time and space to do this, but right now I would kill for a great conversation and hug from someone I love. Traveling alone can be so awesome but it ebbs and flows and unfortunately right now I feel so very lonely.
This I think is one of the major differences between me and my Dad and my brothers who always seem so content to travel on their own. I spend so much time while I'm traveling thinking about my Dad and wishing that I could talk to him about this trip. I know he would absolutely hate what I'm doing right now (quitting your job to travel around the world alone? No way!) despite the fact that he did the exact same thing at my age! And he was going to crazy places before it became trendy or normal to do so. I know he came to Nepal and India in the 60's and I would just love to be able to compare notes with him on what it was like then compared to now (Asia, Europe and New Zealand too!)
Anyway, I'm trying hard to soldier through. I met a nice Canadian girl last night from nova scotia who I'm hopefully going to get together with again. Count on those maritimers to go out of their way to be kind and friendly. She's been living here for a while and volunteering so I'm hoping to get some much needed advice. I met with the coordinator of the centre for physically disabled children today and will probably go and spend some time with the kids there. I just made friends with a tabby cat who is now sitting on my lap and purring so I am now happier than I've been in a long time. Did I mention I dream of spike on an almost nightly basis? Sigh. Cats are amazing.
Okay, send me some positive vibes! And for those of you who have done Nepal (alex, tim, Katherine, Tony I'm talking to you!) please send me advice re: anything, esp treks. Is there something quick and easy I can do? I'm still scarred (and scared) from my altitude sickness on kili so I want to take it easy!
Oh yes, and I now have my forth phone number in half as many months in case anyone wants to get in touch:
011 977 981 3565098
Much love from a gal with a few loose screws...
Well it's a good thing that last night when I arrived in Kathmandu I possessed neither the energy nor the mental ability to write a blog entry because you would have gotten the most sad, delerious, and depressing thing I've ever written, because as my Grampie used to say, "I'm hanging on by a thin thread."
But alas, today is a new day, and after a much needed meal, hot shower, and sleep, things are (slightly) better than they have been since I arrived in this part of the world.
Part of me would like to say that things can only get better from here but I said that before leaving Varanasi and they definitely took a turn for the worse! Let's just take it one step at a time then...
I left Varanasi and took a local bus to the Indian-Nepalese border which is about 250km away. Would anyone like to hazard a guess at how many hours that took? 13. Yes, 13. Do the math. That's just under twenty km/h on a hunk of shit bus with Indian men spitting, snotting, and pissing around me. By the time I got to the Nepal border it was dark and I was mental and had no clue what I was doing. I was led by a random man to a table down the road with a sign written above it that said Indian immigration. Just a table in a shop on the side of the road with one man watching cricket on the tv who took my passport for a few minutes and then handed it back with the appropriate stamp. I then walked across the border and went into an only slightly more sophisticated room with a little Nepalese man who did the same thing. He had to leave to go and get someone to sign my visa though. The random man then led me to what I guess they consider a hotel. I can only describe it as a place where people go to die. In all my travels I have never stayed somewhere so awful and so sketchy, including the night I spent on the Mekong river in rural Laos in a room with plywood walls and drug deals going on in the room beside me. If you've seen the movie "The Beach" and you remember the room that the crazy guy Daffy kills himself in at the begining of the film, this was pretty much the room I stayed in. No electricity. No water. And I listened to men wreching outside my window all night. It was one of the longest nights of my life. Oh, I almost forgot, the best thing about this "hotel" was that it was called hotel paradise.
The next morning in my state of misery I broke my big toe by walking forcefully into a concrete step and then spent from 6:30am until 4:30pm on another local bus through rural Nepal. This time, the woman sitting in front of me vomitted out of the window and onto me! Awesome! The only good thing that happened on the bus was that a cute little girl asked me for my autograph. From India to Nepal I've gone from a circus freak to a celebrity. The bus through Nepal was crazy. Winding through the mountains on these terribly windy roads passing buses on the shoulder reminded me of the bus rides I took in Costa Rica when I was 17. It was sickenly scary then but this time around I didn't care. Part of me wanted the bus to flip over and crash down into a gorge just so I wouldn't have to be on the bus anymore.
So, I'm now in Kathmandu and trying to figure out what to do with myself. I've decided that this trip to India is much like the decision I made to go bungy jumping: something I felt I had to do in order to prove to myself that I could. Just like jumping off the bridge, I didn't really want to, but my pride made me. Stressfully, scary, and something that I'll never do again once it's over.
I've realised more and more while here that despite being a fiercly independent person, I do not do well without social interaction. Sitting on buses all day long and going days without having a real conversation in english with someone gives you way too much time to think. And for someone who already thinks too much and is a little bit on the metal side, a happy woman this does not make. I honestly think that over the past week or so I've thought about every aspect of my past, present, and future: every friend I've ever had, every guy I've ever liked, every job, every regret, everything. I know part of traveling on your own for an extended period of time is to award you the time and space to do this, but right now I would kill for a great conversation and hug from someone I love. Traveling alone can be so awesome but it ebbs and flows and unfortunately right now I feel so very lonely.
This I think is one of the major differences between me and my Dad and my brothers who always seem so content to travel on their own. I spend so much time while I'm traveling thinking about my Dad and wishing that I could talk to him about this trip. I know he would absolutely hate what I'm doing right now (quitting your job to travel around the world alone? No way!) despite the fact that he did the exact same thing at my age! And he was going to crazy places before it became trendy or normal to do so. I know he came to Nepal and India in the 60's and I would just love to be able to compare notes with him on what it was like then compared to now (Asia, Europe and New Zealand too!)
Anyway, I'm trying hard to soldier through. I met a nice Canadian girl last night from nova scotia who I'm hopefully going to get together with again. Count on those maritimers to go out of their way to be kind and friendly. She's been living here for a while and volunteering so I'm hoping to get some much needed advice. I met with the coordinator of the centre for physically disabled children today and will probably go and spend some time with the kids there. I just made friends with a tabby cat who is now sitting on my lap and purring so I am now happier than I've been in a long time. Did I mention I dream of spike on an almost nightly basis? Sigh. Cats are amazing.
Okay, send me some positive vibes! And for those of you who have done Nepal (alex, tim, Katherine, Tony I'm talking to you!) please send me advice re: anything, esp treks. Is there something quick and easy I can do? I'm still scarred (and scared) from my altitude sickness on kili so I want to take it easy!
Oh yes, and I now have my forth phone number in half as many months in case anyone wants to get in touch:
011 977 981 3565098
Much love from a gal with a few loose screws...

